Not again!

I need to be responsible for only myself and when it comes to others I have to mind my own business. The thought of having any control over anyone else is an aberration. The only person I have control over is myself. Sometimes that just pisses me off. I can't even control my kid.

I'm not sure why I think I know what is right for another person. I have been praying for Divine guidance to reveal to me what I need to know in each situation I struggle with. Especially in regard to other people. If what is revealed to me is something I don't like or isn't part of my value system that doesn't mean I'm any better of a person. It means I know what is right for me. The knowledge revealed to me also doesn't mean I can judge another.

I really struggle with this thinking that I know better. I don't live a morally correct or perfect life. today I read "Any attempts at manipulating the lives and minds of others only results in sabotaging my own serenity." No one in this world is better furnished to understand me than me. The only person better to understand another is their own self. In any given situation all I need to do is see what part of the problem belongs to me and what part doesn't belong to me. I have to own my own stuff, my areas of undergrowth. I started writing this blog to do exactly that and I lost direction. I do that often. Time to get out that big blue owner's manual.

God I am such a control freak! I think it's time to sit down with the Great Sponsor again. I'm seeing how much shit I'm hanging on to.