Holding on to crap

There's many names for it; poop, poo poo, doo doo, ca ca, to name a few. These are the words we teach our little ones to say. I didn't think this was a subject that would be received very well. I debated even writing about it. Since I'm a bit of a risk taker (especially when incognito) I figured why not write about 'number 2'!

I've come to the conclusion that our bodily evacuation system can at times be correlated with our mental state. We're told by health professionals, psychologists, and spiritual gurus about a mind body relationship. We can create illness by our thoughts or beliefs. With this in mind, it makes perfect sense for our internal plumbing system to be included in this mind body experience. I began thinking about this in the 1980's. I was in therapy for 'codependency' issues and began understanding the concepts of hanging on, letting go and energy work. I related hanging on to constipation and scattered energy to diarrhea. With the eventual balance between the two as a normal functioning intestinal tract.

Sometimes I forget about ideas and theories I use to apply to my life. Things that have actually worked before. Hanging on to shit resurfaced in my consciousness because of a friend. We had quite a few conversations on poop. My friend started having some positive experiences and his consistency changed. I was letting go of of some of my preconceived ideas on love and my frequency changed. It's really his fault that I'm paying so much attention to this now. He most likely appreciates the blame and I'm having fun writing about it.

My sign of undergrowth continues to be about fear, control and holding on to negative thoughts. Patterns ingrained since childhood. These patterns keep me in a struggle I've worked on since I was twelve years old. Needing to keep a closed heart to protect my psyche from harm but wanting to be open and experience life. I've been afraid of losing control for most of my life. I recently read when a negative characteristic is on it's way out it will seem worse than ever. You'll see it everywhere and it falls out of control. That it can be discouraging because it is something you really want to let go of. This is the actual process of letting go. Move through it, and keep letting go every time it comes back. Eventually you will have peace where you had struggle. Mine continues to be the path of the heart.


So the next time I haven't had any movement and feel extremely bloated, it's time for me to reflect. What am I hanging on to? If my energy is scattered and I'm mentally all over the place, I'm usually experiencing a consistency problem. Time to draw that energy in and figure out why I'm 'leaking'. Toxins build up and pollute our body's as well as our minds. It's important for me to reflect at these times.

Why the hell is it so damn difficult to post if I can't see perfection!!!! If you can't read perfection! I'm sooo not there

Be Well
Jane